Lately, I've been overcome with an increasing fear that I have completely lost my ability to write coherently. In losing this ability, I of course would be doomed to flunk out of college (Boston University!), be kicked out of my parents house in the deserted land of New Mexico, and inevitably be forced to acquire some sort of low income job at a fast food joint. So to prove to myself that this is not my inescapable fate, I've opted to write this post.
College, in and of itself, is fucking scary. With making friends, finishing homework assignments and term papers, feeding oneself, and avoiding the Freshman 15 to worry about, it's a wonder most kids don't drop out after the first few weeks and retreat to the comfortable bosoms of their mothers.
But on the other hand, I'm truly looking forward to the opportunity to learn about what I want, with teachers that don't suck, and get involved in all the areas that I WANT to, as opposed to waiting around for a high school group to spontaneously form that would encompass my every interest.
And then, of course, there's the fact that I might actually kiss the ground once I get out of New Mexico and back to the United States. Never have I craved the city, traffic, taxis, subways, and unsolicited rudeness on the streets so much. I am not a rural girl. And though Albuquerque might be dubbed a city by some, the truth can be observed quite clearly. Albuquerque is a big town. I will admit, the area is beautiful. But the beauty of thousands of headlights, multicultural cab drivers, graffiti on the streets, and the endless supply of sounds and smells found only in a city are to me, far more dazzling than a mountain range to my east.
Personally, I find the miracle of thousands upon thousands of human beings living together in one gigantic bustling community that nevertheless functions with dazzling ease a far greater beauty than nature alone. A psychologist at heart, I find human interaction far more beautiful than a few big piles of rocks. And though a place like Albuquerque, with its heart stopping skyline and rich landscapes, not to mention a deep culture of native american and mexican roots, is nice for a visit, the city will always be my home.
I get bored easily. And the countryside, despite all its positive attributes, just isn't for me. Boston, here I come =)
